Competition

As I sit here  and reflect on the year it has been - you can only imagine what my mind is going thru at this time. So before I proceeded to write things down, I boiled some water and made myself tea. Now finding myself sitting at the same spot looking back on the year it has been for the second time around - I suddenly felt instead of writing what I have done and what I would wish to accomplish in 2018, I am finding myself being so competitive! 

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Being competitive is always something that was celebrated in my childhood and really was rewarded when you reach the top. I have learned there is no point on being second when you know you can be number one! This mindset earlier on made me compete in a lot of things and today - right here - right now, just the thought of competing in anything either sports or conversations or a debate is exhausting. 

Why does it always have to be a competition? Gathering images and thoughts of where I was and what I have done in 2017 made me realize the tone I set up for myself was to perhaps not be the best version of myself but to push myself to be better than yesterday! I was always seeking the top. Being competitive with myself - leading me to think each action is never good enough for it can always be better - I can always be better. Months of meditation and practicing yoga - it has taught me that I am not only better at things I AM GREAT! Each time an action is done knowing fully well I have exerted everything in my being - soul, love and action - this was good enough aka great! 

Is there room for improvement, of course there is - as long as we know what we are improving on - I know my delivery needs to be improved but then again my hidden accent and choose of words others find funny - I just know though Vergara has been in hollywood for over 20 years, she still speaks like she's fresh off the boat with her thick Columbian accent. Really though, I could never imagine her uttering words differently. 

So to speak - 2018 will yet be another year of discovery - and how I was last year? I know now I must bring awareness to the journey as it is as important as the destination. In fact it may make the destination that much more worth while.

xoDomingo

Metta : LovingKindness

The past weeks, I have had the opportunity to venture into group meditation and one of the things we talked about was Metta : lovingkindness.  Though there are so many versions, there are so many interpretations, one thing I have learned is when practiced it does create a sense of stability and keeping the earth below my feet *grounding - well at least for me. 

image source : http://www.buddhanet.net/pdf_file/scrn_metta.pdf

image source : http://www.buddhanet.net/pdf_file/scrn_metta.pdf

I wanted to write about the metta that I have been chanting every time I catch myself questioning some actions for my karma :

May all beings be happy and well. May no harm and danger come to them. May they live in peace and harmony.

May I be happy and well. May no harm and danger come to me. May I live in peace and harmony.

May my family be happy and well. May no harm and danger come to them. May they live in peace and harmony.

May my teachers be happy and well. May no harm and danger come to them. May they live in peace and harmony.

May my friends be happy and well. May no harm and danger come to them. May they live in peace and harmony.

May my enemies be happy and well. May no harm and danger come to them. May they live in peace and harmony.

May strangers be happy and well. May no harm and danger come to them. May they live in peace and harmony.

May all beings be happy and well. May no harm and danger come to them. May they in peace and harmony.

I share with the intentions that we be inclusive.

You are love.

xDomingo